Solace4Soul

 A tale of a dysfunctional family, Kumbalangi nights takes us into a deep dive into a coastal Village beauty and contemporary issues. Kumbalangi nights is about the lives of four brothers Saji(Soubin Shahir),Bobby(Shane Nigam),Bonny(Sreenath Bhasi) and Frankey(Mathew Thomas) and the people around them and people who enter into their life eventually. Set in a fishing hamlet of Kumbalangi, it brings about the subtle beauty of the coastal village. The scences at night showcasing the beauty of 'Kavaru' or bioluminescence of algae in the water was so well shot that it looked magical. There is representation in every nook and cranny of the cinema.The brotherhood and conflicts between Saji and Bobby, and Bonny trying to get them out of their fight by mere staring.Potrayals of masculinity (Shammi,Bobby), modern love of Baby and Bobby, Issues of unemployment and societal judgement faced by fishermen and other jobs was portrayed through Bobby. A scene i found striking was when Shammi ask...

I feel safe in my room Don't care if outside is in doom  I don't want to come out  I don't want to be judged I love myself here truly I can take my mask off Engage in what I love Don't push me out  I am not ready to come out

 Leave me, isn't it too easy  To say that you got a lover That our friendship is over My eyes swell It's like a well About to overflow  All these intense Feelings Comes from a losing friendship I loved you as a friend  And you took it for granted  I just asked for some respect  Why do you have to be so upset I hope in the future  You will see Humans as humans  And let them be.

I hate this feeling  I chose to tread  On this thread  Unstable, I know  I'm still hanging on "Go with the flow " The advice went How can I When I know  This water will thrash on rough rocks eventually My mouth is shut  But my rhythm isn't  The voices in my head Are nothing but cruel  Hate is my only fuel  I don't want to go forward I need to Words will rain I will be in pain  Still I'll tread On this single thread

 I can't hear you  I struggle in quicksand of words Every step pulls me downwards  I try my best I keep my ears ready  To listen But no one cares In sharing their life They think I am untrustworthy  What should I do so that I feel worthy All my old friends are far and gone Those who got me are not with me anymore  I hate this time and place  I wish I could disappear with no trace

 You say study Every flaw of mine is laziness Have you ever thought about my happiness  I feel violated My room trespassed Even if it's for a good reason  You care about me Yet the very care breaks me down  Now I have no strength  To stand on my own  I am really  Just really done with life

 Life is a circus And I am the clown I lost my face Have to runaway  From this town It's anhedonia  That bothers me  I don't wanna live a pointless life A dark tunnel with light as a bait I am tired of this endless wait Years spent in isolation  Tears flowing down  I am not okay But I don't want to worry anyone  Even though my throat feels tense And my eyes sting I'll still sing If it brings some solace

 You're successful  In breaking me down  Never been so stressful On the ground is my crown Life feel like an endless tunnel And even though at the end of the tunnel I see light I can't fight The shadow beneath me It still follows The murky waters in my heart Doesn't clear up Even if I speak it out loud Over my head is a dark cloud  It doesn't let the sun shine Being too kind  Is hurting my mind

 Pretending to ignore you  I see you from the corner of my eyes But when you come close  I can't look into your eyes You were with me when I cry Always asking about my well-being  I wonder is he a human being  He has the power to light up the room  Make everyone like him despite his unpopular opinions  To talk about everything without shame And the way you call out my name I don't have to say it out  It's already evident in my eyes

 The day is still left You can make good use of it Don't worry about wasting time  When it's for a precious person Yes, you yourself is precious 

 Sometimes I feel  The one in front of me Is my mirror  He reflects all the parts, I admire about myself  Being smart  And being good at art Are you good in heart? Because I also see The reflections of my insecurities My flaws You highlight them I can't figure out which is right You are a virtual image In the back of the mirror  And you act the same  In front of others But I can't bring myself to hate you  Because I see me in you

 My roots are from a giant tree The familiar old family  I stood above as the highest branch Let the timber hold my weight  I waited and still wait To that day  When I have a say But I am dependent  Till the branches holding me Became redundant  It's time for a free fall A free new life  Yet I am afraid  Cause it's new And very few Roots hold me now  Trembling here I fall No time to stall I fell sharply to the ground  As the weeks goes around  Tender leaves surround The sun smiled widely "You have become wise Your fall was precise" And all of the doubt washed away by the rain With no pain there is no gain.

 Overthinking is my passion  It's an old addiction  What if s running around my mind  That's all I could find

Got a lot of problems  Headache  But I can't share it with anyone  Isolated,is how I feel Medicated,to heal But the scars inside the heart Won't show up on scan I do what I can Quiet with no plan Intrusive thoughts  And their free estate It's my pathetic state

 What's being a man? He does what he can Step in sun and get a tan To keep his children under a fan He cooks and cleans when she can't  Be a ear to her rant Treat fellow men with love and respect  Even if they're trans or look feminine  A real man won't be offended at makeup Casteism is not his genetic makeup  Racism isn't cool Be serious about school  Take care of his brain Make it not a drain To think and to change  To support equal wage Isn't afraid to show affection  Provide with ample love and protection  To teach his daughter To not be slaughtered Red stain and monthly pain Doesn't pop his vein His love and care Must be shared

 "Don't cry" My tears won't dry I want to let this out All the things I suppressed And hid inside my heart  All the hard things break, my love They shatter like glass No matter if you're in my class Or you know my secrets There are things I won't tell Not even to my therapist  Cause I don't trust the world around  And I don't want to be a burden  To the ones who has their own issues Just lend me some tissues  Sit with me while I cry Watch as each tear drop dry

 3 were the steps I walked towards you  Free, how I felt How could you Give me praises  And put me in pieces I am crumbling down Heart wants to stop beating It is not good out here "You are an outcast  No one will understand you  Or your struggles " It will brushed off by people  And even the one who received 500 I feel alone,in the midst of the crowd  Standing still when they are enjoying and living life  It's a pain With no gain In vain Just leave me alone  No, I am lonely... comeback  I can't decide  I wish I could act like my friend Hiding the storm inside and braving through the ocean I don't think I'll find any good physician

 Violence violence spreading around me All the digital boxes glorified it Little kids fight among themselves  Forgetting we are human Killing kin and kith with no mercy  A silent silent cry When the mouths taped And compasses dig into flesh What world are we living  Intolerance is at its peak Can't picture your feet in Someone else's shoes Buying seperate shoes For each occassion  Changing colours with no hesitation  The youth spend in fun Is now rotting under the sun Heart is racing  Mind is confused How did we get into this mess?

 Manissinakkare is a family entertainer movie directed by well known director Sathyan Anthikkad.  CAST: Sheela as Kochu Thressia. Jayaram as Reji, Nayanthara as Gauri. Innocent as Chakho Mappila.Siddique as Tony. KPAC Lalita as Kochu Maria. The setting of the movie in a small town full of paddy fields and village elements is very apt. The opening with Kochu Thressia going to church behind Tony and gossiping with her friends shows her friendly nature.She complains about preist, to himself without any fear. The scene introducing Reji was well done.Him having debts and trying to find excuses for it was funny.Reji has certain beauty standards fixed for his wife.Every girl the broker introduces do not have the beauty of Clara ,his ex Kochu Thressia was shown as a cute grandma with childishness still inside. I love the bond of father and son played by Innocent and Jayaram. Jayaram's skill in mimicry is shown through his accurate depiction of Prem Nazir's voice.The ending of the stor...